When you finally feel peace flood into your heart, actual peace that could only come from God, your life instantly changes.
I have always “trusted” God to get me through life but this was different, this time I actually opened up my entire heart and asked, quite frankly begged, for Him to use me as His instrument because even in my wonderfully blessed life, I felt empty… the only thing that filled my heart was anxiety, worry, fear, and everything God tells us, through scripture, to avoid.
As a military wife, fear and anxiety seem even easier to come across than maybe in a “normal” working situation. Growing up military I truly loved every minute and I now see that was a gift from our mother because she never once stopped living life even when she was lonely, worried, stressed, or out of her element. And now as the mother, I am finding it is not as easy as it had seemed from a child’s perspective.
So this is where God came in… I felt I had been chasing Him for years but I realized He had really been chasing ME! Patiently waiting for me to come to the realization that I couldn’t do this alone nor did I need to. He was telling me to come to Him in my worry and trust Him. When I eventually had so many burdens I couldn’t carry on my own and most certainly didn’t want to hand off to my family or friends because it was just too heavy, I finally fell… right at the feet of our Lord… Who gladly took those burdens from me. The relief was great and I felt more love for and closer to our Lord than ever before.
My angel has always been able to open her heart to our Blessed Lord.
Aromas of My Life 
So beautifully written. Thanks for sharing.
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What a powerful first blog post! You opened yourself to a higher spirit and set yourself free! Isn’t it amazing how one experience can feel so different just by changing the perspective? Life was certainly simpler as a child! I hope you continue to write to help you through the good times and the challenging ones. Thanks for the slice.
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The way you explained it, “realization that God was waiting” for you is so powerful! It’s actual, it really happens that way.
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I love your first line-so very true. “When you finally feel peace flood into your heart, actual peace that could only come from God, your life instantly changes.” I always feel His peace when I completely open my heart.
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